i feel like a bag of shit. i keep looking at old pictures of myself, wondering where that pretty, skinny girl went. how she could possibly have turned into this. i can't believe i let myself go this badly.. i'm so scared to go out in public..
going to dad's today to get some percocet. i have no money for pot so at least they give me a mild buzz to make it through the days. five days til we get money. i hate the week before payday. we're always fucked. one week of happiness, one week of being broke and miserable.
hopefully things will change when i quit pot at the end of the month. we should have hundreds of dollars more each cheque..
how do sober people live? i'll soon learn.
Ugh looking at old pictures of myself always makes me feel like shit too. Hey and I think it's great that you will be trying to quit pot at the end of November! Good luck with that! I wish you the best :)
ReplyDeletei've been sober for almost a year and i live pretty good ;) it's a long tough road, but worth it.
ReplyDeleteOh I know just how you feel, I feel like I'm insulting people by dragging my hideous body out and letting them see it, I think quitting the weed's a great mood, I'm sure you'll do really well :)
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